The big question: What are you going to do with your life?
Whenever I have invested a lot of time and energy in something and it ends, I go through a wild range of emotions that often seem very hard to navigate. The question of everyone around me: ” What are you going to do next”? Isn’t really helping with this, but I do realize at the same time, those questions really shouldn’t matter to how I feel. It just adds a bit of pressure to the questions I am already asking myself. What are you going to do next? And why is it so hard to be in the space of not-knowing, resting, emptying? This nothingness feels scary and I immediately…
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The battle between light and dark
How often did I reach the point of total darkness? Not a pitch black night really, but more like misty clouds on a rainy day. Beautiful but melancholic in nature. As if a black pit has taken up a permanent space in my heart and is slowly infecting the rest of my system. Everything seems futile in this state. Trying to control the blackness tires me, I have taken up this battle a million times before and every time it wears me out. Every time I get on that surfboard again, I feel a bit more tired. A bit more weary. Everything seems futile except for her, for she is…
A few days ago, I heard that my bestest friend, aka my soulmate, has passed away. After an extensive search for a week, the people who are looking for him, concluded that he must be in heaven now. In the stars, or whatever you want to call it. My. heart. stopped. beating. for. a. split. second. Panic! Memories of the last 2,5 years, flooding into my present. Threathening to almost drown me with their intensity. I. dont. want. to. go. through. this. again. Not the black hole please, I just came out of it a few months ago. I am finally thriving again. Not now! I need you still. You…
Find what feels good
Those who are familiar with Yoga with Adriene probably already know the slogan: “Find what feels good”. I have been practicing her yogaclass on and off since I became pregnant, enjoying her sense of humour and approach. While I liked the idea of getting to know what what feels good, I dont think I fully understood what she meant by that. But lately this particular phrase starts to sink in and I finally feel like I can grasp the meaning of it. It speaks all about selflove and being kind to yourself. Living life for myself I have been working with a coach for a few months now and she…
The art of now
I was just about to write about how I am getting there! How I am feeling like I am getting the hang of this single parenting thing. That I am growing more and more into the person I think I am. But just as I was going to write that down, I realised how its not about getting there, but more about being here. (yes a cliche, I know) So, I am here now, the woman of my dreams. It’s me and I am super happy to be her. There is no one to become, the very thought of becoming something else that I am now sounds a bit weird…
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Handleiding voor mezelf
Ik ben Jessica. Ik heb autisme en ADHD en ben hoogsensitief en hoogintelligent, oftewel een toverbal. Ik ben creatief en sensatiezoekend, maar het kan me ineens teveel worden. Dan zie ik het niet aankomen en moet ik ineens weg van alles. Want mijn grenzen aanvoelen is nogal een dingetje. Ik vind dat lastig. Hierdoor raken mensen in de war, omdat ik sterker overkom dat ik ben. Ik ben ook sterk, maar ik kan niet alles aan. Ik heb de juiste combinatie van prikkels nodig, en ook ik weet die niet altijd te vinden. Vaker niet dan wel, wat een lastige zoektocht geeft. Ik ben volhardend en stug, maar heb…